You know what I wonder about lately? What talk show hosts talk to their guests about when they cut to a commercial. Because they always lean in as the camera zooms out, and I’m wondering, what are they saying? “Dude, you bombed.” Or is it more cordial? “Thanks again for coming on my show blah blah blah.” Watch the next moment on a talk show before the break. It’s just one of those things I think about. I also think about this: What makes a good person? A few weeks ago a girl told me I didn’t need to worry about getting into heaven, “Because you’re hilarious!” she said. I found it odd because I don’t think a sense of humor exactly is your ticket in. I’m sure there are murderers out there who can tell great jokes. I’m also wondering what Heaven consists of. I used to think it was a white puffy place where you just hung out and reunited with all the dead people from your past. But I’m starting to think it’s not such an “entity” that you get into.
My beliefs have been reconstructing themselves this year. As a child I thought that following the Golden Rule and loving unconditionally got you in, among other things like Church on Sundays and not banging until you get married. I guess I still think that to some effect, but my concept of Heaven and how you get there has changed. I think what happens after you die is an evolution of your soul. But you can only evolve once you’ve learned and grasped whatever is necessary here on earth. My mom explained one theory to me that says the reason for humans to exist is to bring God into higher consciousness. And I can believe that. Sometimes I think, that guy who everyone says knows what he’s doing, DOESN’T SEEM TO KNOW WHAT HE’S DOING! Maybe when we struggle and then overcome, our achievement becomes that of the entire Universes. Our lessons are God’s lessons.
I just think you’ve got to get it before you move on. I don’t know what the lesson is specifically, in fact I’m sure there is more than one, but I know you can’t evolve until you’ve understood what you were sent here to. Maybe it’s different for everyone. I don’t know if I’m conveying properly how I feel, because maybe I don’t even understand it myself. And I don’t pretend to. I just know that when I watch people like “The Real House Wives” or “Toddlers and Tiaras” or Rick Perry, I think to myself, they don’t get it. I can’t exactly place my finger on what it is, I just feel intuitively that some people get it and other people don’t. And the one’s who do will move on to something greater, the ones who don’t will take another lap around the track. That’s the thing about the universe, it will deal you the same set of cards until you learn how to play them properly. This year has dealt me some tough cards, so I hope I played them right and get a better hand in 2012. I’m sleepy now.
Health, Happiness, Heaven.
FibroM.E.-Awesome 
You may have already read it, if not try get a copy of this, I think you may like it.
Jonathan Livingston Seagull a story by Richard Bach.
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This reminds me of my days in my Forerunners of Existentialism class. I suggest you check out some Soren Kierkegaard, specifically Concluding Unscientific Postscript. Take a look at his three stages of existence, its also on wikipedia if you want a condensed version.
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When I was reading what you have written (and it is such a powerful gift you have) I was expecting people to rush in and hand you the pamphlets about what is the true path of salvation and why are we here.
The best thing is to have questions (like you have them) and then, gradually, have your answers, as the realities of life and death unfold to you. They do. To everyone of us. Gifted people have acute observation and pick up these things far better than average population.
With sincere prayers and the best wishes.
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I’m going to move past the Christian thing here and tell you…you’re a Buddhist, babe! Maybe even a Buddhist babe…
If you know (?) Buddhism, the whole point of life is to behave in such a manner during this lifetime that you are reincarnated in the next one on a higher plane (no, not 35,000 feet up.) If you don’t get it, you just keep coming back and doing it all over again, sort of a detention eternity. Check it out. I think you’d find it makes sense.
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I stumbled onto your blog, and this post is downright inspirational. I have been wondering these same things for a couple of years now, and have come to the same kinds of conclusions you have, but you have worded them most eloquently. I prefer life to be more about spirituality than religious-ness, and heaven as an evolution of the soul is just…..it’s just right.
Thank you for your post!
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To the blogger:
exactly.
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I honestly have NO idea how I ended up at your blog, but I can’t read this and not say something.
The thing we have to GET here on Earth is our need for a Savior. It goes way back to the beginning of time, but basically Eve messed us all over when she ate the fruit God told her not to eat and introduced sin in the world. God provided ways for people to cover their sin with the sacrifice of animals and a lot of ritualistic things you find in the old testament of the Bible. God knew there needed to be a covering for sin once and for all and that’s where Jesus came in. He came to Earth and lived a perfect life and died as the “sacrificial lamb” for everyone from them on.
When our sin is covered, we’re acceptable to God and we go to heaven to spend eternity with Him. Asking Jesus to cover our sin isn’t just a “get out of hell free” card. It’s a way of life. It’s not only asking him to save you, but to be the ruler of your life.
I know this may sound like some crazy babble, but I promise you I’ve seen the Lord prove to be true and real over and over again in my own life.
This is a long comment, so I’ll end here. :)
But for real, if you ever have questions or want to talk about stuff, shoot me an email.
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I ended up here because of a fluke too!
Let me tell you Stephanie…. I think the way you wrote what you did was the best way I have EVER heard the way of salvation being explained…
Kudos to you :)
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As a former Athiest I am here to tell you what Stephanie is saying is true. If she wouldnt have responded with this, I would have tried to say the same thing. There is only one way to heaven and its trusting in Jesus and asking him to come into your life and forgive you for your past wrongs. Once you start reading and learning about him the picture gets clearer and clearer, it really does!
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